update
beth asked if my blog was broken or if was supposed to be blank.
kathy asked the same.
julie requested an update. she's tired of looking at the blank page.
i am, too. so here's an update for you.
i survived another round of lay-offs at work a little over a week ago. my team did not survive the lay-offs. i've been "folded into" another department. time will tell how that will affect my day-to-day responsibilities. for now i've moved to a desk across the office and am waiting for the rest of the company to shift desks to accommodate the new structure. those changes will happen quickly. other changes are yet to be announced & seen. i don't expect the next few weeks to be calm.
i've been so mentally submerged in the work-bound chaos that there's been nothing blog-able to put here. i've felt blank (thus the post), abandoned, uprooted, confused, angry, nervous, sick to my stomach, overwhelmed ... and may be experiencing a bit of separation anxiety. it's struck me as interesting how quickly one can become accustomed to her situation. and how true it is that we don't realize what we've got until it's gone.
yes, i know ... focus on the fact you still have a job, 'becca. and i am focused on that. i'm fortunate; i know. but i deny that the good fortune of having a job negates all the other emotions & facets of the situation. i deny that still having a job justifies glossing over the ugliness of the situation. the situation is ugly. not as ugly as it could have been ... but ugly nonetheless. i have no qualms saying that. it doesn't mean i have a bad attitude or that i'm ungrateful. it's just the truth. and ignoring it won't make it go away.
neither will dwelling on it reverse the events of the past twelve days. so we move forward. perhaps a bit more cautiously than before. trying to find a balance of acknowledging the events while not being mired down by them.
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'becca burned her finger getting the potatoes out of the oven ... but it was worth it.
kathy asked the same.
julie requested an update. she's tired of looking at the blank page.
i am, too. so here's an update for you.
i survived another round of lay-offs at work a little over a week ago. my team did not survive the lay-offs. i've been "folded into" another department. time will tell how that will affect my day-to-day responsibilities. for now i've moved to a desk across the office and am waiting for the rest of the company to shift desks to accommodate the new structure. those changes will happen quickly. other changes are yet to be announced & seen. i don't expect the next few weeks to be calm.
i've been so mentally submerged in the work-bound chaos that there's been nothing blog-able to put here. i've felt blank (thus the post), abandoned, uprooted, confused, angry, nervous, sick to my stomach, overwhelmed ... and may be experiencing a bit of separation anxiety. it's struck me as interesting how quickly one can become accustomed to her situation. and how true it is that we don't realize what we've got until it's gone.
yes, i know ... focus on the fact you still have a job, 'becca. and i am focused on that. i'm fortunate; i know. but i deny that the good fortune of having a job negates all the other emotions & facets of the situation. i deny that still having a job justifies glossing over the ugliness of the situation. the situation is ugly. not as ugly as it could have been ... but ugly nonetheless. i have no qualms saying that. it doesn't mean i have a bad attitude or that i'm ungrateful. it's just the truth. and ignoring it won't make it go away.
neither will dwelling on it reverse the events of the past twelve days. so we move forward. perhaps a bit more cautiously than before. trying to find a balance of acknowledging the events while not being mired down by them.
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'becca burned her finger getting the potatoes out of the oven ... but it was worth it.
posted by 'becca at 8:19 PM
5 Comments:
Woo-Hoo! You updated! I found it to be a little confusing, but I think my head is just tired right now. I'm glad you survived the layoffs, I hope you get adjusted soon.
Sorry to hear about the work situation. i know where you're coming from and its not fun. Yes you have a job still and that's the important thing... but changes like that still blows. Hope things settle down there and you get adjusted to it quickly!
i agree with Jodes.
So, did any members of your team also get folded in somewhere, but the team as a corporate entity didn't survive? Or were you the sole survivor? It would thoroughly stink if the latter were the case.
Hang in there, 'becca. i'll send you another couple photos to help cheer you up. :-)
I can relate to your situation. Not the lay-off situation, but the un-blogable, empty, blank feeling. I've been in such a funk as well recently (thus the lack of updating even though i've been on the computer. I just feel blah and boring. I keep hoping that the freshness of the upcoming year pops me right out, but hoping doesn't quite change it. SO all of that to say... lets be blank together, ok?
b.e.c and becca -- I don't have a blog because I know it would stare at me blankly asking me to update it. stupid blank blog. But I appreciate it when you guys fill in the text box every once and a while.
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